But my anxiety helps me...

As someone who would describe themselves as anxious for much of my life, I often felt my anxiety helped me. It ensured that I always doubted myself which ensured that I worked harder and faster than everyone else. The voice in my head screamed a daily and nightly battle cry that often had me ruminating, perseverating, and replaying the day's events or preparing for tomorrow's events. Sleep was only possible with melatonin and I never felt as though I could be truly present in an enjoyable activity, because I always had to worry about something. I felt insecure in my body and being, and always felt like I was vibrating. And to add to it all, I incessantly picked the skin next to my fingers, leaving them raw and painful. Pictures of me in Lake Arrowhead with friends and at a concert feature me picking my fingers.

When I first began my Emotion Code Certification, I focused my sessions on my anxiety and my finger picking. I never had an ah-hah! moment where I felt the anxiety melt away, but overtime I noticed that the critical voice softened, I trusted myself more and hesitated less on making decisions and the thoughts that kept me up at night faded into the background and I no longer need melatonin to sleep. The finger picking, on the other hand, was a different story. In my training, I heard about a man going through the certification process who wanted to lose weight. Every time he had a sweet craving, he did an emotion code session on himself to release any trapped emotions causing him to crave sugar. Through that process, he lost over 100 pounds. I thought, "If it can work for sugar, it can work for finger picking." I released ten trapped emotions all related to/causing my finger picking and the moment I finished, I lost my urge to pick. And it never came back. I knew I had more trapped emotions causing the picking, so I continued doing sessions on myself. I have not picked since.

The thing is, it's not the anxiety that makes me work hard and have perseverance, it's an internal driving force that is excited and trusting - it isn't fear based. Relinquishing the underlying anxiety to things that don't deserve an ounce of attention has helped me feel more regulated and present in my life.

After two sessions, a client of mine mentioned that she no longer heard the negative voice in her head.

After eight sessions, a mother noticed her teenage son no longer fall apart while studying and his stress around getting all As lessened. He received a B on an exam, which dropped his overall grade to a 91% and what would have usually resulted in a panic-stricken meltdown, ended with him acknowledging that he was disappointed and that he will study more for the next test.

A client was experiencing anxiety around breast pumping when returning to work postpartum. After two sessions, the anxiety was gone and milk production was far more than it was prior to the sessions.

Anxiety is the anxious person's plight and it can feel cyclical and never-ending. It becomes so much of our personality, it's hard to believe we are anything but an anxious person. Who are we without that mean, nagging inner voice, propelling us ahead, or causing us to circle the drain? I'll tell you who we are - we are calm, we are knowing, and we are capable of trusting ourselves, even if it feels like we never have. Through this energy healing work, many clients have discovered they have prenatal and preconception trapped emotions contributing to the anxiety. How can we, even with years of introspective and reflective soul searching work, alleviate our own anxiety if we showed up into the world with that deck of cards? This work isn't shaming, nor does it require deep insight. Your body knows what it needs to let go of in order to bring it back to a peaceful calm.